Friday, April 13, 2012

Adjusting

We're trying to get the household back to normal. The pack is very aware that one of their members is missing and they're clinging to us. We move as one big group thru the house and even in the yard they stay close by.

In the morning I still look for Tsar in his usual spot. I count out too many cookies at treat time and have caught myself filling one too many bowls at dinner. I have to think twice when I sign emails from the dogs, it's no longer Morgan, Tsar and the Porties.

I really intended to sit at the computer and respond to each of you who sent emails and blog comments, but I find the tears starting up and I walk away. I'll  get to it, just not yet.

I did want to share one thing with you. Today we received a card from some special friends. I so love the front of the card that I had to share.
Isn't that a wonderful image?

30 comments:

Marjie said...

I still look to put Thor out on my way to bed sometimes. And I still find myself looking for him when I come downstairs in the morning. It's a very hard adjustment to make. I'm glad you have Sky trying to help fill that void.

scotsmad said...

It's a beautiful card. We know the porties and Morgan know you need a bit more care.

XXXOOO Daisy, Bella & Roxy

Macintosh Mitch said...

It's takes time to adjust, Sue. I still find myself doing for 2 instead of just one. ((((hugs))))
I love the puppy cloud image!

SissySees said...

That photo choked me up.

I still tell the boys good-bye when I leave the house, every single morning. But I also catch myself talking about them in the present tense sometimes too.

Mr. Pip said...

It's a beautiful image! I still miss Tommy the cat I told you about and he passed in 2009! And I still look for Sweet Pea, who passed away last September. It takes a long time ...go easy on yourself.

Kristin & Pip

~Kim at Golden Pines~ said...

Oh Sue!!!!! A really busy and chaotic week has put me behind on reading blogs. I cannot begin to tell you how so, so sorry I am about the loss of your precious and beloved boy Tsar! I know what he meant to you, and I know you'll never entirely get over losing Tsar, but I hope you find peace and comfort in all your memories of him that can never be taken away...

♥♥♥ The OP Pack ♥♥♥ said...

We all still miss Dakota so much and it has almost been three years. Let the tears flow, take the time to heal, the emails can wait - we all understand the pain and sorrow.

We know Tsar is smiling down at you and loving that you keep wanting to give him treats.

Woos - Phantom, Thunder, Ciara, and Lightning

Sam and Pippen said...

They never really leave us. I still think about the cats I had when I was a teenager.

Kathleen, Sam and Pippen's mom

Two French Bulldogs said...

so sad when they miss their siblings..so hard
Benny & Lily

Jed and Abby in MerryLand said...

What a comforting, loving painting! Had not seen it before. It's wonderful.

The pain of loss is so acute, only the years of love that precede the loss make it bearable.

Hugs to you all.

Jed & Abby

Mango said...

Oh I am so sorry. Tsar was a very special "cat" dog and he will be missed. I know how hard it is on all of you. Dogs do mourn their missing pack members.

Mango Momma

Ronnii, Uji, Izzy + Ziggy said...

I am so very sorry for your loss, I know what you are going through right now. I also find myself counting out too many treats and getting four plates out for food rather than three. No matter how many have gone before it never gets any easier does it ? But the support of all the dog bloggers goes a long way to help ease what we are going through I have found.
You are in our thoughts and prayers.

Love
Momma Tea
xxx xxx

Asta said...

Oh sweet Fwiends
I just saw that Tsaw had to cwoss the bwidge..last time I visited he was still wif you and my heawt bweaks to think how much you must all miss youw wondewful sweet boy.
That image, shows just what I think, he is snoozing on a soft cloud aftew being welcomed byu all ouw angels
who have gone befowe
sad smoochie kisses
ASTA

ArtemisiaFSS said...

We were very sorry to learn that Tsar had gone to the Rainbow Bridge. He will always live in your heart and one day those memories will bring smiles instead of tears.

Ms. ~K said...

I read out Tess on Mango blog...thinking of you during this difficult time!
~K

Priscilla said...

I just came from Mango's blog.

I'm so sorry for your loss :( It is always hard to lose a beloved pet. Run free, beautiful Tsar.

soulbrush said...

What a huge shock this was for me to see this today. I wish you both and all the gang my heartfelt sympathy. It must be like having a limb cut off, I can only imagine it. So sorry Sue. Look upwards, always look upwards.

Jake of Florida said...

We didn't know Tsar, but we ache for your loss nevertheless. When one of us says good bye to a dear friend, we all feel it in our hearts and souls.

Sending you love for comfort and support!

Joan and the Barkalots, Jake and Just Harry

Molly, Taffy, Monty and Winnie said...

We have come from Mango's blog. We are so very sorry Tsar has gone to the Rainbow Bridge, he must have left you many wonderful memories. Run free Tsar.

Molly, Taffy, Monty and Winnie

Wild Dingo said...

Take your time. Wallow a little even. Let the pain move through you. You will know when it no longher serves you.
Love from all of us,
Julie, Loki, Juno and Mr. Wild Dingo...

Nicki said...

It's amazing all the little things you don't realize until they are gone.

STELLA and RORY from Down Under said...

Hi All, there's always something to remind you of a loved one who has passed but that's our way of remembering them, sometimes with tears, sometimes with laughter. Take care and hugs to everyone. No worries, and love, Carol (and Stella and Rory)

rottrover said...

The image on the card is priceless! Thinking of you all...

Ina in Alaska said...

Hello from Alaska. Visiting from Mango's blog. We never met but we know the pain when one of our precious pups crosses the Bridge without us.

So very sorry that Tsar is no longer with you and please always remember he will always be with you in your hearts. So very sorry. xo

Sally Ann and Andy said...

Hi,
Mommy calls me Mack sometimes, and I know that is not my name. Mommy told me that it takes time. We are sad with you, and we are so sorry for you.
Andy

houndstooth said...

We read about Tsar on Mango's blog and wanted to drop in and say that we're very sorry that you've lost him. Mom says we dogs just don't live long enough.

Bunny and her mom

bichonpawz said...

The cloud image is amazing! It does take time to adjust. I don't think I will ever stop tearing up when I hear another has crossed the bridge. Every time I see a black dog I can feel the tears starting. Hugs to you!!

Team Beaglebratz said...

I am so sorry I did not see this until yesterday and even then I did not have time to comment. I did go back and read you previous post with pictures of Tsar – what a happy boy he was. He reminds me of a big teddy bear and no wonder you loved him so much – such a sweetie he just had to be. Yes, it will take time to adjust - seek out the rest of your pack - you will help each other - I know when my little Oreo crossed the Bridge, the Beaglebratz helped me immensely.
mom Kim

Nichole said...

That is an absolutely beautiful image...........

Oskar said...

My name is Oskar & though we didn't know Tsar, we are very sad for your loss. We hope the healing begins soon and your pain lessens every day.

Sad nubbin wiggles,
Oskar & his mom person Pam